A thousand words

New URL

2009-04-25T11:38:00.000-07:00

the url of my blog has been driving me nuts but I couldnt think of a name that felt like "me" finally came to me so here it is update your lists and stuff ;-)

Freckles and Fairytales

I even thought of it myself!

my kind of jewelry

2009-04-21T13:10:00.000-07:00

I have been in love with soldered pendants since I started seeing them around the cool boutiques and trade shows in Seattle about 3 or 4 years ago. The gift shop I used to work at (closed now) also had a local artist who made beautiful pendants using vintage photos and books. I was hooked! I have a collection of them and I always want more. I was always under the impression that the tools were unaffordable for some reason and never really got to the point of purchasing any myself...THEN My little sister purchased the tools to make them awhile back and occassionally I get to play with her! I really need to get some of my own equiptment I have so many ideas floating around in my head of things I want to make given the tools and time. I love how these turned out. Pictures arent great because we had 3 little ones running around and we had to be very careful with the soldering gun but hey I am using every little piece of the mushrooms and gnomes in the most thought out ways
;-)

gone to the dogs

2009-04-15T15:24:00.000-07:00

As hard as it is to cut into any of my precious Heather Ross fabric I did! Once I started playing I couldnt stop. I made these the last couple days, not sure if the patches will be quilt blocks or a pillow.. maybe put on a placemat? I put one on a plain dishtowel and it really looks sweet hanging in my kitchen. Another made its way to cover a hole in Iris's jeans.

quilt block night and more

2009-04-15T07:27:00.000-07:00

Last saturday was our second "monthly" quilt block night. Christina and her mom Shelia have many years experiance quiting while Liz and I are pretty new to the world of sewing. It has been a lot of fun learning new things. Christina has put together a sampler quilt of a bunch of different designs so we will be learning new techniques each month. Its been lots of fun. I have a set on my flickr here. Christina is also posting tutorials on her blog so be sure to check it out if you would like to play along!

Sunday was Easter we had a pretty low key relaxing year. Our only family that celebrates holidays went on vacation so it was us and our good friends along with my husbands orphaned (;-) siblings. We had pizza and salad, crab dip and goodies. The girls looked so cute in their new outfits.. I didnt take nearly enough pictures though..

new dresses for the girls

2009-04-08T15:51:00.001-07:00

I finally have something made for all of the girls! I used the knot dress pattern from sandi henderson and her farmer's market line of fabric as well for the twins dresses. Iris's skirt I used a tutorial in this book
that I will use many many more times it was really quick and simple. Stellas dress I just kind of made up and it looks much cuter on than hanging on my empty shelf but I wanted to post a blog while the beans were napping so I took what I could get. I have to do the button holes still on the babies dresses but other than that I am done! It feels good to make something for all 4 girls to wear!

Sunshine oh how I love thee

2009-04-06T21:06:00.001-07:00

I love the way you make the freckles pop, I love the way you make everything look soft and glowy and the way you make my skin warm and the grass warm and my heart warm.. please stick around

beautiful days in the PNW

2009-04-06T16:21:00.001-07:00

Its not raining! Our yard has been seriously neglected and with the snow we had this year even grew MOSS! We have some sunshine to dry it out and spend about 5 hours working in the yard on Sunday. This weekend was so beautiful and today is too I cannot explain how good it makes me feel to have some warm sunshine on me. The girls even found a frog! Oh and see iris's skirt. She LOOOVES it I made it for her last week using a pattern called "bo peep skirt" from Seams to me by anna marie horner. I should do a whole post on that skirt once I get a few more made she just LOOOOVES it and it was so simple to make

Happy Birthday Little Man

2009-04-01T08:06:00.000-07:00

Sunday was Colin AKA "Mr.C's" 1st birthday. Colin is the son of our close friends Brett and Liz . Having no little men running around in my house full of girls I get my boy fix from Colin and Brice (Christina's son. I can't believe it's already been a year. Seriously I think the older I get the faster time flies... or maybe its once you have kids you are always so busy that time seems to move faster? I dono. Colins first birthday was so much fun. Liz worked really hard and there were so many people there to wish Colin a happy first birthday. His cake was so good.. seriously I dream of Larsen's banana cake ;-) Colin LOVED his cake.. its always so fun to see how babies react to getting a huge slice of sugary goodness put on their highchair tray!

Mango Upside Down Cake!

2009-03-26T19:08:00.001-07:00

Mango Upside Down Cake!, originally uploaded by sarahecosta.

I just Love Mangos.. they are my favorite fruit for sure. I like to buy frozen fruits at trader joes to have on hand. I followed this recipe http://www.thatsmyhome.com/momsdiner/desserts/mango.htm
with the exception of a few things... I had no half and half so I used whole milk and I used double cinnamon and double vanilla ;-) its so yummy and in my opinion better than pineapple upside down cake because it isnt soo sweet.. although.. yeah I still love pineapple upside down cake

Ruby's Bloomers

2009-03-18T15:04:00.000-07:00

I have been eyeing these babies since the first time I saw them in weekend sewing . Not only are they adorable but they are called "RUBY'S bloomers"! The largest size for the pattern is 18-24 months. My Ruby is only 21 months but she weighs about 36lbs so thats closer to a 3T usually. Her twin sister Larkin is quite a bit smaller so I thought I would try the pattern first and see how it fits Larkin then adjust for Ruby's size next. I was pleased when I finished and the 18-24 month size (that only takes half a yard to make!!!) FIT RUBY comforably I might add! It's so exciting I just love the way they turned out. Now on to make Larkin a pair and them maybe some little tops to go with them.

Quilting... block one

2009-03-16T07:56:00.000-07:00

This Saturday night I started working on my very first quilt! Liz and I went over to Shelia's for a yummy chicken fajata dinner,some quilting.. and of course lots of visiting and laughs. One of my favorite parts was getting to play with Christina's little guy Brice. He is just a sweet pea! The oh so talented Christina put together a sampler quilt for us. One block a month for 12 months. I keep hoping we can do a couple a month at least once in awhile. ;-) It was lots of fun. I have a lot to learn and Christina and Shelia have been sewing for a long time and are great teachers! My first block is done! Be sure to check out Christina's blog for a tutorial if you'd like to play along and Liz and Shelia will be posting about it too im sure!

check me out!!!

2009-03-13T10:05:00.000-07:00

I have new teeth! First time in over 20 years I am free of metal! I finally have my dental work done (for now and lets hope for a long time) It was so sweet when I got home last night the girls had flowers waiting for me too! I am very excited. I have always been pretty nervous about the dentist and I have
TMJ so holding my mouth open for a long time was not fun.. the drills and everything else were not fun, but looking into my mouth without metal looking back at me feels so good!

another weekend sewing summer blouse

2009-03-12T08:59:00.001-07:00

I made this yesterday using a vintage sheet I got for next to nothing. I am afriad to use any "expensive" fabric still because I havent perfected the size yet. I thought the size Large would be too small, so I added a couple inches and it is BIG. I love the top I think I will make one more trial just using the regular size Large and get the size right and then move on to using some different fabrics. I got SO frustrated with this project because the twins didn't nap ling enough and I am one of those people who starts making something and cant stop until its done. So I ended up sewing the sleeve on inside out! heheh. Its all fixed now and I like how it looks. It might be a little pajama though.

I also bought another gnome for the yard. Hes so cute my favorite so far. I have 3 more from the same line at target from a few years ago. This new guy has such vibrant colors compared to the older ones. I cant wait to start planing seeds I bought some sweet peas and of course a bunch of sunflowers. I cant get enough of those

a new friend

2009-03-10T13:15:00.001-07:00

I really like 30 min sewing projects ;-) The little skirt I made Stella and forgot to take pictures of when I made it last week. I snapped this on her way out this morning

Green week day 5

2009-03-06T16:32:00.000-08:00

Green week day 4

2009-03-06T07:54:00.000-08:00

little late.. busy girl scout day sorry ;-) Also Larkin bit Ruby really hard! My other girls never did this.. its so sad. I am not sure how to make her stop. She laughs in time out!

Green week day 3

2009-03-04T22:10:00.000-08:00

Project #3 weekend sewing

2009-03-03T13:22:00.000-08:00

I made this dress for Iris today (and partially last night) using yet another of Heather Ross's patterns from "weekend sewing" it was so simple and lokos especially cute I think after I added the piece of polka dot fabric and ric rac to the bottom. I have one problem. Last week I got a new machine. I was assuming it would work so much better at shirring because it has been awesome otherwise so far. I spent like 2 hours last night trying to make it work! I did exactally what the book said to do when shirring. then I went online and looked at every tutorial and you tube I could find on it. I even had Rob help... He kept acting like I was crazy. I got my old machine out and just did it.. I mean with little adjustments at all it works on my old machine. BUT my old machine sucks at everything else so I am just lost. Anyone really good at shirring out there???

Green week day 2

2009-03-03T13:14:00.000-08:00

Weekend Sewing book still on my counter.. really I have other things I want to sew but I am a little obsesssed at the moment.. and I LOVE the beans green squeaky shoes

Green Week Day 1

2009-03-02T07:13:00.000-08:00

Pretty chair at McMenimans Edgefield Troutdale Washington. Yesterday Liz and I went to Ruby's Spa for a fun girl pampering day.. Soaking in the saltwater pool was my favorite part. It was SO much fun! Thanks for inviting me Liz.

Heather Ross Weekend Sewing Project #2

2009-02-25T10:44:00.000-08:00

The "Everything Tote" I love the way it turned out. This fabric worked great. I used the dec. weight for both interior and exterior because I had it and I really like how it turned out. This book is so great. Such easy patterns! I was showing how roomy the inside of the bag was. Naked babies even fit inside.. but when I was grabbing the camera they got into a fight ;-) but really its big

Heather Ross Summer Blouse take 1

2009-02-24T10:09:00.000-08:00

Yesterday morning my mom brought over a really cute piece of retro fabric she found for me at the goodwill for next to nothing. I had thought about making the girls dresses out of it but I have been really wanting to try out the summer blouse from this book but I am waiting on my new sewing machine and fear using more expensive fabric on this machine that has serious issues. Of course when I measured it I didnt think I had enough to make sleeves. Fine with me I wear a lot of tanks in the summer and with long john shirts it looks great in the winter too. I enlarged the top because I didnt think it would fit.. well I ended up cutting a good 8 inches off because I over estimated my size ;-) I totally could have made sleeves ;-) Still I think its lots of fun and will look even cuter in some of the bohemia stuff I have and the Heather Ross stuff I ordered... if I could ever find any nice looking vintage sheets that would be awesome but they all seem to be stained or worn out or lots of pink (I am still not a huge fan of pink on clothes for me) we'll see. Sewing from a pattern is not as hard as I first feared

yummy goodness

2009-02-22T20:59:00.000-08:00

I found this place ! A year or two ago Rob and I were watching the food network do a special on the best pancakes in america or something. It was listed as #1. Since then we have intended on going. We took the oppurtunity this morning because Grandma and Grandpa C asked to borrow our bigger muchkins for a morning breakfast and park play date and Nicolle offered to watch the little beanies! She took some great pictures of them playing with her (she is such a blessing seriously but thats a whole other blog) This was our first date during the daylight hours since the twins were born! And a great date it was.

I think everyone I know should eat here (and please invite me!) The entire menu looks good. I had the "dutch baby" and I give it a million and one stars. Rob had the bacon pancakes. Great but not as great as mine ;-) Their coffee is amazing... the wait was about 30 minutes and its a small place. Perfect for a kid free outting!

Love Day Cats

2009-02-19T08:20:00.000-08:00

I finished them in the nick of time. Made from "recycled" sweaters, scraps of fabric and vintage buttons

Fiesta!

2009-02-17T07:45:00.000-08:00

This past week just flew by. Friday was my sister and Brother in law's 5year wedding anniversary party. We made 100 tamales and 100 enchilatas! They ended up not quite as "perfect" as the ones I made about a year ago but I did hear lots of people commmenting on them tasting great! The Sourcream chicken enchilatas were my personal favorite. Actually kind of an adaption of the same ones that Christina introduced me to back in about 2000 (starting to feel old ;-) They are always good. The ultimate comfort food in my opinion. The star of the show was Cory's dulce de leche, mexican chocolate cake.. so adorable! hmm well I guess I havent uploaded any pics of the food yet so just imagine them for now ;-)

A dress for me!

2009-02-10T15:05:00.000-08:00

No pattern.. basically I looked at a dress I got from old navy a few years ago and tried to kind of copy the style of it. Its just a rectangle and a 6 inch trim at the bottom with ties for straps. I did some "shirring" that worked out really nicely I think. Maybe I should perfect it and make a "tutorial" so I wont sound like a rambling fool. I ADORE Anna Marie Horner's fabric lines. The Bohemian I used for this was $3 a yard so the dress was really inexpensive to make. I have a lot more bohemian in other colors I cant wait to make more things with it. Maybe a quilt or 10 more dresses ;-)

look I made things

2009-01-28T15:30:00.001-08:00

Nothing too thrilling but I havent sewn for way too long! I was really excited I didnt have issues with the log cabin since I havent really ever made anything like it before. The scarf... well I made it in like 15 minutes while I baby sat my niece and the twins were being wild. Its really fun I like how it turned out... just cut random 6 inch wide by however long and stitched it together and then when it felt long enough I made the other side. I love the Amy Butler stuff and I really love the feel of the grey cashmere

little moments

2009-01-20T07:52:00.000-08:00

I try to focus on pictures of my girls being themselves. Things that will be lost one day when Ruby grows out of her cinnabon knees and Larkin doesn't want to "run nakie" and keep her little toes curled. When their faces change and they look more like women than little cherubs.

tagged!

2009-01-19T20:43:00.000-08:00

My friend Christina "tagged" me to blog the 4th photo in the 4th folder.. so here it is. I am not sure how to make the nifty glowy name that sends you the link on her page but I put her blog addy on the bottom of my post. She is an amazing crafter and has inspired me many many times with her blogs. She is also a great friend of about 8 years or so and has a new little adorable bundle named Brice who I just cant wait to play with again

cashmere hats

2009-01-15T17:02:00.001-08:00

I have been collecting cashmere or other soft sweaters from thrift shops. Today I made my first project with them!

Dec 23, 24th & 25th

2008-12-30T07:31:00.001-08:00

The last few days before Christmas were a blur of busy busy. Now I am sick as a dog hoping I am better soon I dont like to start the new year off unhealthy ;-)

December 22nd

2008-12-24T08:24:00.000-08:00

still... snowy

December 21

2008-12-24T08:20:00.001-08:00

Well all of this snow is keeping me in the house more so I am all done with all 4 blankets for the girls! Horray! The green and brown one is Iris's and the colorful one is for Ruby!
Oh here is a picture of Stellas too. I finished it awhile ago but forgot to post.

December 20th

2008-12-24T08:16:00.000-08:00

It is the beans first real snow. They went outside in it for just a few min utes before getting mittens off and freezing, needing to come warm up in the tub

December 19th

2008-12-24T08:15:00.000-08:00

It's all snowy here.. and Betsy made me these really awesome knitted fingerless gloves I am in love with them

Dec 18th

2008-12-18T09:26:00.000-08:00

No School... snow days are the best

December 17th

2008-12-18T09:21:00.003-08:00

It's a little snowy outside.. been busy with kids and trying to finish up sewing projects

Dec 16th

2008-12-18T09:18:00.001-08:00

We took the girls to Zoolights. It was REEEALY cold but so beautiful so worth it!

Dec 15th

2008-12-18T09:17:00.002-08:00

Meet Hooty!

Dec 14th

2008-12-18T09:17:00.001-08:00

December 13th

2008-12-18T09:13:00.000-08:00

Tonight we made the little felt bird ornaments inspired by

Dec 12th

2008-12-18T09:11:00.000-08:00

Little Snowman Stellie made for me in class! He is so cute, air dry clay with a button hat

Larkie's blanket

2008-12-12T07:57:00.001-08:00

I finished this about a week ago for Larkin, although when I started I didnt know who I was making it for. Larkin has always looked really pretty in green and when she was born the older girls brought her a soft green blanket and Ruby a pink one. So thats how I decided this one was for her. I took FOREVER to decide how big to make the blanket. The size of the batting I had bought was 45x60 it seemed really long for her. I think I made it something lik 45x50... i'm now onto Stellas blanket. She requested a Olivia Pig theme. I decided to make a rag quilt, never tried it before and it looked pretty cute. I am making 8inch squares of Olivia flannel in a few different patterns and black minkie dot and red minkie stripe. We'll see how it turns out. So far its been really quick. I'ts been really frustrating trying to make my machine work correctly. It has been bunching up and tangling on the bobbin side. I will be sewing along just fine for like 30 minutes and then it just gums up. Take it all apart and the bobbin isnt tangled, its all in right everything looks fine with the tension. I'm not really sure whats up. But the odd this is that when it happens I just open it all up and check it out, put it back and it works again. I keep wondering if the tension is slipping or something. I will havve to post a pic next time.

Dec 11th

2008-12-11T13:35:00.001-08:00

Iris's yearly snowgobe 2007

Dec10th

2008-12-11T13:23:00.001-08:00

Working on all kinds of projects for gifts these days. I found the little dove wreath at Salvation Army. I think its so cute... handmade with love by someones grandma, but we can always pretend I made it! I was helping Betsy with a project for her Mom and got out some of my button collection. I love the purples

December 9th

2008-12-11T13:20:00.001-08:00

Today I got to play with Colin for a little bit while Mommy was visiting Dr.Jill ;-) We had lots of fun.. he never cries. Makes me want a boy... well maybe just makes me want to play with one more ..hehehe I think 4 kids is enough for my sanity ;-) The big girls, me, Susan and Emilie were very lucky to get to ride on the Polar Express train with our Browine Troop this year. It was such a fun time

Dec 8th

2008-12-11T13:18:00.001-08:00

Lemonade out of lemons or something like that ;-)

Dec 7th

2008-12-08T08:25:00.000-08:00

we had a blast making and decorating all kinds of fun cookies. Bears are my favorite!

Dec 6th

2008-12-08T08:23:00.000-08:00

Beautiful sky day! Look you can see all kinds of things in the green ball

Dec 5th

2008-12-08T08:16:00.000-08:00

OK so I know its now monday the 8th... I am doing a little post date blogging. Had some major dental work on friday, havent been feeling great
So here is one of the 2 pictures I took on friday.. hehe Stella and Roo, xmas jammies and sunglasses.. how fun are they

Dec 4th

2008-12-04T22:11:00.000-08:00

Basking in the fun...
Larkin at the PIR "winter wonderland" in her cozy sock monkey jammies eatin a chocolate chip cookie.. life is good

Dec 3

2008-12-03T13:28:00.001-08:00

Here are a couple pics. Just an ornament that I thought had a pretty cool depth of field in the shot and another of Iris in the skirt I made for her last night

Dec 2

2008-12-03T13:26:00.001-08:00

Ruby had just finished pushing the buttons on all of her musical snowmen and flopped down under the tree to enjoy the music

25 Days of Christmas Day 1

2008-12-03T13:23:00.000-08:00

Iris's new favorite bird ornament. She gets one every year. She just loves those glittered feather birds :-) Mommy loves to see how happy she is hanging them on the tree

gobble gobble

2008-11-25T07:56:00.000-08:00

Last night I made these little hand-turkey apliques for the girls Thanksgiving
T-shirts. It was really fast and easy! If they were going to be washed a lot I would probably go around the turkey with some stitching but since its almost thanksgiving I figured I better just get them done! I have Iris and Stellas finished and I just need to put the feet and faces on the beans but the big girls were able to wear them to school and they were excited!

walking at wsu

2008-11-19T14:16:00.000-08:00

If every fall here in the PNW was this lovely I would never be so anxious for summer ;-)

NEW CHAIR COVERS!

2008-11-13T09:47:00.001-08:00

I finally have the dining room chairs covered with something other than the outdated, stained dusty rose we inherited them with... about 2 years ago! Liz and I have been searching for the perfect fabric for a long time. I actually have even purchased a few fabrics, none of them were right for me though. I wanted REAL red not wine or any other version. I didn't want it to look too formal or too casual, too modern or too vintage, I ended up with a cover thats not red at all but the brown looks nice with the chairs and green...well green always looks good in my opinion. So I cut out the covers and then while I was putting the girls to bed Liz and Rob basically did all of the work... they are awesome!!!...and Mr.Colin got to hang out with his ladies

quilt giveaway!

2008-11-12T08:01:00.000-08:00

These 3 quilts are just awesome... go enter ;-)

that time of year

2008-10-24T14:54:00.000-07:00

I love October! Especially this year! It's been sunny and not too cold... just beautiful! Iris turned 9! We went to a few pumpkin patches... done lots of celebrating and the girls have really been doing well in school and love their teachers! There have been really busy weekends between soccer and photo shoots and celebrations but its all been good things!

I "heart" farmers market

2008-10-06T16:55:00.000-07:00

I barely have any...actually for some silly reason when I was at fabric depot I only purchased .5yards of each of the 3 apple prints in this line. WHY? I sometimes get overwhelmed in that store ;-) But I love the entire line so much! Its so happy and so fun and so colorful. I want to make a cute mini quilt or wall hanging or something! I need to get some more of it! Liz picked up a few items for me last weekend but now I am debating... do I need to find it online or maybe go to some other quilting shop? Anyways I made Miss Bee a quick skirt on friday. Its a 1 hour project I dont measure really or anything but she looks so cute in it!

a few of my favorite things

2008-10-06T16:43:00.000-07:00

I took these a few days ago while cleaning the babies room. I am trying to inspire myself to focus on the little elements of the room that I love and go from there. I have other things too but this is what I snapped in the first 5 minutes before having to switch the laundry and then forgetting what I had been doing. The room is big... but it has 2 windows and so the lighting is great. I am almost tempted to keep the walls "GASP" the off white color they are. I feel like with the crazy combo of colors in the things in the room I don't need to have a whole lot on the walls. Plus we have a really big shelving unit in there and quilts to hang up...etc I have been buying pieces of fabric to make some wall hangings from too. It'll be fun... now I just need to get some help moving the 70 bazillion pound shelf and cribs around

love in the morning

2008-09-30T14:42:00.000-07:00

I love the morning when the rest of the family is off to work and school and the beans are cozy still in their jammies. I love how funny thier hair looks and how much Larkin loves her binkie and blanket. Just the times like this I am so grateful that I don't have to leave them for work every morning and that I am there to enjoy these precious few years

Shar's place

2008-09-23T14:09:00.000-07:00

One of my lifelong friends is opening a beauty salon this month and I am so excited she asked me to take some pictures for it! So far these are going to be printed big on the wall I have to decide on 2 more. I am thinking one of the blue shoes nicolle wore at the wedding and one of a makeup brush... havent dedcided yet ;-)

Color Babies!

2008-09-19T09:19:00.000-07:00

The beans are getting so big so fast its amazing! They love to color. I love to see their personalities showing.

Since before they were born they were assigned "colors" from Iris and Stella... Larkin was purple and Ruby was pink (because its close to red..lol) they picked their colors today in dot art pens

And while Larkin took her art seriously (in my red bandana that she HAD to pull off my head and put on hers) Ruby enjoys making her art wearing just a diaper and singing songs while she bangs on the paper

to be three

2008-09-17T17:42:00.000-07:00

Today the beans and I went thrift shopping with my mom, sister and Lilly (my niece) I was incredibly excited about a few things I found... 3 beautiful square dance slips that are really poofy and beautiful (lilly is wearing the purple one and I will post the red and navy ones later) and a really cool paper sun umbrella. Honestly this morning I was telling Rob that I had been looking online for them to use as props for photos and look... I go to the store and find what I was looking for... and they were cheap! I spend 14.99 each...(btw they were brand new with tags) and they were for sale online for $80 bucks each!

I snapped these pictures of Lilly just before she left and she was ready for a nap! I love how real kids are at that age... they can talk but they can't REALLY "behave" and so they have this huge range of emotions in a matter of 5 minutes... she is so adorable! This Sunday we are getting together to take some fun pictures of the girls all together. I can't wait!

look I made something!

2008-09-15T12:17:00.000-07:00

It feels like I haven't blogged in forever! I finally took pictures of something I made! Actually its the first pattern I have ever used! Called "friday night apron" I made it in about 2 hours too! I think its pretty cute, I will probably have to make a lot more now!!!

Does anyone have any links or ideas for things to make? I have a bunch of new fabric but not a lot of ideas at the moments.... also fat quarters.... I got a pack because it was so cute but I have no actual project in mind yet
inspire me please!

My Favorite Kind Of Days

2008-07-31T15:58:00.000-07:00

Last Saturday we took the kids to the Enchanted Forest. It is SO COOL! None of us have ever been so we didn't really know what to expect. It was like a really quaint version of Disney with some what of a homemade feel....oh and a way smaller budget.... the little story book houses were my favorite and I loved how the whole area was wooded so it was cool. It was CHEAP too compared to most things. I think around 7 bucks to get in and things like Ice Cream and Churros were $1.50... isn't that refreshing! It is in Salem so it was expensive to drive there sort of but I think we spent under $100 for the whole day. Something thats hard to do when you have 6 people.

I didn't spend a whole lot of time on the pictures since I was holding kids and running around most of the time but here is what I have

http://www.flickr.com/photos/sarahcosta/sets/72157606410190088/

This one of Rob and the big girls on the bumper cars is one of my favorites they are so happy!

summers been good to them!

2008-07-17T15:07:00.000-07:00

I am so happy that my hens and chicks are finally looking good good again!

The "sediums" or Gum-Gums as Iris has called them since she was 2 in the picture above usually look great no matter what I do but they even look happier than usua

I have had about 2 years when even in the summer they didn't get too pretty. So I am happy to say that they like our new house! I think it has something to do with the amount of sunlight or something... along with me not being pregnant or maybe because im watering them more or maybe because I used better soil and rocks in the soil when I repotted. Either way they are happy again and I am too!

Emilies photoshoot

2008-07-16T15:52:00.000-07:00

Here are a few pictures from Emilie's photoshoot last week. She is a stunningly beautiful little girl... seriously she could model. I was happy with how they all turned out but here are a couple of my favorites the rest are up on my flickr

Things I love Day 2

2008-07-08T20:52:00.000-07:00

I'm not sure if it ACTUALLY makes you any smarter but I have to tell you that I feel way more refreshed from "Smart Water" than I ever do from the regular stuff. Maybe its all in my head but I swear sometimes it even makes my headache go away!

Adding a fun picture of Stella from this afternoon's swimming fun over at Sarah & Alex's. Gotta love a warm sunny day and a popcicle

"Things I love week" Day 1

2008-07-07T17:50:00.000-07:00

Tweaking Christina's idea for "Things I love week" a little because I am no where near the awesome crafter she is... I will gain knowledge from her posts and do a much less infomational but still fun version for my "things I love week" Showing off things I have that I wouldn't wanna do without!

Today I am honoring my cell. It's new (fairly) I have never had a good "texting" phone before and I have to say I am not sure how I managed before I had it! It's fast, easy, the letters are like a keyboard and the camera is pretty decent too!
Plus it matches my Tahoe

I think he could model!

2008-06-22T14:39:00.001-07:00

Otto Man, originally uploaded by sarahecosta.

Rob doesnt but Otto is seriously so good for the camera... he loves it! Rob thinks his "one eye" would creep people out but I think he's hot stuff!
OK really the whole point of this blog is to test posting from Flikr! I feel so dumb I had no idea I could do this! HORRAY!!!

my beans are almost 1!

2008-06-12T09:03:00.000-07:00

After trying for days with no luck I finally got a shot of the babies together at least looking at the camera! It's not "perfect" but it will do. I desperatly need no HAVE to get birthday invites out. Do you think Felida park would be a safe bet? They have the undercover area. You cannot reserve it but I think if we get there at 7am we should be ok.... I hope anyway. The other option is here...and we need to paint and I have such a hard time getting things all ready for parties here. Plus if it's at the park we have no issues with parking and space. I just hope for no rain.

I had started this blog in January intending to not myspace blog anymore. Now I never use it because I haven't had a chance to really figure it all out (how to make a background and suc...add friends links) but I need to just start using it more and I will firgue it out... 5 minutes at a time like I do everything else.

Mother's Day pictures

2008-05-13T18:04:00.000-07:00

I was lucky enough to take some pictures of some of my favorite people as a Mother's day gift. I am just starting to learn some things about the camera and editing...etc. One thing I have to say is that the location makes a big difference. You can see the whole set on my flikr

http://www.flickr.com/photos/sarahcosta/

another skirt

2008-04-28T13:08:00.000-07:00

Made from a "charm pack" I found at Craft Warehouse on Saturday. Turned out pretty cute. I think it will be too small for Stella (who wears a size 6) after this summer but its still really cute. I need more ideas for the "charm packs" I bought one with lots of citrus colors that I would like to make a tote bag or something with for Iris. Any ideas?

more sewing

2008-04-24T21:22:00.000-07:00

I made all of these for $6! Thats pretty cool. I am using enexpensive fabric while I learn but I felt around for the best quailty of cheap stuff. One of these days I will follow a pattern or one of the cool tutorials Christina sent me... and I have to get a cuttter. It takes longer than it does to sew things when you cut them out by hand without a ruler and all. I am a little addicted I think. I was in the shower drawing out how to make the baby dresses on the shower door steam this morning..lol

my first attempt

2008-04-23T11:20:00.000-07:00

My friend Christina came over yesterday and gave me a sewing lesson. It was awesome! I have always been so afraid of the machine!!! Today she would be proud the bobbin ran out and I was able to fix it! Its a work in progress and I am sure not really straight or professional but its a start anyway! And I love the colors

Leg warmers

2008-04-04T22:54:00.000-07:00

This has been the most fun project. Now I know my pics kind of arent the best but you can get the general idea as it really isnt a very dificult project. This started out because I bought the twins "babylegs" for $15 bucks around Christmas time. Love them... hate how much they cost when I have to buy 2 all of the time. PLUS I always see cuter adult knee socks on clearance. The purple ones below were a pair I bought to "try out" how to make them and then It worked well so I have made several more attractive pairs. I simply cut the foot of the sock off, turn it inside out on a starbucks cup... make a little fold at the top. Then cut the heal and toe off the sock part that was cut off. Turn the remaining middle of the sock into a cuff and sew it on the bottom and flip it rightside in and you are done! Stella is a big fan as are the babies. They are shorter on her. She wears them with her "skorts" or under shorts if its too cold. Beans knees stay rug burn free and thats always a plus. I will post better pics if anyone is still not sure what I did. Or look it up online I am sure there are better ways. I was thinking of adding ribbion or something to jazz them up a bit

woof!

2008-04-02T14:20:00.000-07:00

Inspired by Christina I am posting a picture of my mutt also today. This is a especially funny looking shot of an especially funny looking boy.

this little piggy

2008-03-27T12:23:00.000-07:00

Larkins sweet little toes. They started out turned upside down and folded in when she was born she looked like a frog. Poor girl was being crowded by her big "little sister" The twins are everywhere now. Crawling around the house getting into every thing and I can't take my eyes off them for an instant! They are funny and sweet and so curious. I cant wait to see what the future holds

huh...well that was my fault

2008-02-21T16:29:00.000-08:00

I didn't select all of the pics to insert into the blog. I SHOULD edit the other post but its now 430 and I have to get my butt in gear

blogger is way better to post pics in blogs than myspace

2008-02-21T16:26:00.000-08:00

Today after we walked Stella to the bus the beans and I took a walk around the neighborhood. We said goodbye to Vanessa and family who are going to the beach for a long weekend and then sat off for our walk.

When I say things like " I love the sunshine" please realize that I mean I LOVE THE SUNSHINE! Like my entire soul warms up and comes to life again. Like I am at peace and feel like I am glowing. I was made to be in the sun. I don't care if my skin gets freckles I don't even care if I get wrinkles from my years of worshiping her. I pray I don't get anything worse. I have been using a low spf but keep telling myself that there is NO cancer in my family.... that I have dark eyes and get tan pretty easy so I am somewhat safe right?

Because for me life without the sun is just not an option.
I am trying out the cameras and weighing the benifits of the two for Disneyland. If you get bored easily you can just skip all of this....

The 300 is the "big camera" in size but mostly in $$$$! If something happend to it that would be BAD. The thing is though, I want really good pictures from the trip... its one of those things where if you have used the better one, the faster one, the one that takes great pictures that you don't need to adjust or edit... the one I know better it makes it hard. I used the 300 today and tomorrow or sometime soon I will used the 40 and compare.

However the 40 is a lot more affordable if something happened. It is awesome it is a DSLR too its smaller and more compact. The color is good, the speed is good... I am not as happy about the focusing as I am with the 300 who very rarely misses a shot. There are more focus dot things (technical term there) so thats kind of why I like it better. I think I need to learn the 40. I think I just dont know how to adjust it as well as I do the big one.

Such a hard choice I have to make. This naughty little girl inside me is saying "you need to take BOTH" Because Nicolle is a great photograper
even with a point and shoot (much like Betsy) so with one of the Nikons we could get THOUSANDS of great pictures.

Of course that girl is a bitch and I should really not listen to her..... and before I make myself sound totally insane I cant ACTUALLY hear these people talking to me in my head ;-)

SO anyways..... beans fell asleep in the sunshine and I was able to walk for about an hour. They woke up just as we got up to our house. Now the big girls are getting homework done and beans are napping I am thinking "What should I make for dinner" and most of all I am still feeling refreshed and alive from being outside.

why oh why can't this place be as lovely as today everyday?

pretty little babies

2008-02-21T14:17:00.000-08:00

This was on the side of the house in the "plant grave yard" I didn't know Strawberries can come back to life. I took it out and pulled out the dead stuff so I guess we will see. My Hens and Chicks don't look very good but I had the color on "vivid" so they do now.. lol I didnt have to edit these pics at all, that always makes me happy. Not that they are great but the color is! I need to get some flowers out front and more hens and chicks. I need to actually pay a little attention to my plants especially out front. I want to plant Sunflowers this year too. They would look so good up aginst the red house. all for now.. Larkin is screaming

help

2008-02-15T14:11:00.000-08:00

I am totally clueless when it comes to blogger. How do I add friends? How do I find people? I have no idea. I am so annoyed. I am so tired and feel like just relaxing. Its horrible to say this but today I just wish someone would come and take my kids for a night. No monitor waking us up to screams at night, no getting up at 6am and having to be fully functional. No inturuptions during a movie. Just one night. I know the babies are young but I just want one night with Rob all to myself. Then sometimes I feel like there are times when looking for and getting ready for them to go to a sitter is harder than just dealing with it. Ok we have only had a sitter once overnight. I wish Grandma and Grandpa would ask for the babies. We always have to ask if they would take them for a couple of hours and I worry we are imposing or something

ok Larkie is done with her 10 minute nap
ugh

it started out so innocent

2008-02-10T21:35:00.000-08:00

And then Ruby ate Larkins shoe and it just didnt feel right...hehe ok really I just posted these because they are funny for one thing and to see if I could post multipule shots in one blog like this with just selecting several.... way easier on here than myspace with having to have the address of each picture. This weekend flew by but I was going crazy missing my big girls. I distracted myself with doing quite a bit though. Friday night Brett and Liz came over, Saturday we went to lunch and then to Daddy's office where the studio lights are set up to try to take some baby pics. they were grumpy. We will have to try again at another time. Then Saturday night Betsy and I went to the mall so I could try to find some pants and other clothes for Disneyland. I happy to say the jeans I bought are very comfy. I thought they would be too tight but they are not. I debated saving them with the tags on but I am so sick of wearing the only pair that i have that KIND of fit. So I just wore them today and felt so good to have pants that fit and are kind of closer to my normal size. (well my fatter normal size) then today Grandma and Grandpa kept the babies so we could run around and now the girls are home and happy. Nothing eventful happened this weekend. The gf went to Omsi with the kids and they said they didnt
really talk to her. I don't know how to feel about the whole thing. I feel like she makes no effort to be friends with the kids even, at the same time... she generally isn't making a good impression so I just am letting it all ride for now. I think I have stayed on track with WW this weekend. Hoping for a good weigh in on Wed!

this is my life

2008-02-02T21:19:00.000-08:00

Yesterday I had a tooth pulled and a few fillings (for those few people who may read this that aren't on myspace) Dental work is one of my biggest fears. I just turn into a paranoid baby when I hear a drill or the sound of a tooth cracking... sends chills, really. So anyways I am kind of medicated and feeling sleepy. I spent this morning cuddling on the couch with my babies and thinking about how wonderful my life is. How warm and comfortable and happy my life is here. How truley blessed we are to have these 4 little monkeys who love us so much and who are so amazing to watch grow up. Its times like these I cannot imagine being a "parent" without being involved in my childrens lives. I can't even begin to imagine not knowing what they do everyday and what they are feeling like, how they did at school or what they drew a picture of. Rob and I are so very very blessed and happy to have such a wonderful life

getting older, growing wiser

2008-01-28T12:28:00.000-08:00

I find myself with less to say to you as the years pass. For 10 years there wasn't a day that went by I didn't hear the sound of your voice. A voice that has put me through such a wealth of emotions, leaving me here today where I could be no more pleased than if I never heard that voice again. Never saw a text, never an email in my inbox with your name on it.

I remember getting butterflies when my bedroom phone rang in high school, hoping it would be you on the other end. Spending literally 8 hours on the phone with you a couple of times. Feeling this connection I could describe as nothing less than true love. We have been through some wonderful amazing life changing times together. Also some life altering betrayals and disapointments as well.

Looking at you today I don't know who that man is anymore. You are not the boy I fell in love with. You changed and that honest, loving, kind hearted boy died and was replaced with a bitter, cruel arrogant, self righteous ignorant ass. You are the boy who was full of life and love without the light in his eyes.

I have spent the past 4 or 5 years trying to get that boys attention. Trying to force him out of this person you have become. Trying to force love and honestly for myself then after realizing that wasn't going to happen I have spent the better part of the last 3 years trying to force you to be as loving and committed of a father as I had expected you to be. Trying to make you be someone you clearly are not. If it took everything I had to get you there it would have been worth it.

Now my expectations are somewhere else. I no longer am concerned with "how you turn out" I am not going to blame myself for all that you are lacking. I am realizing more and more that what the girls and I have now is so far beyond anything you could have ever been even in your best years.

There really is no need, no place for you anymore.

and we are all ok with that

when stella asks for "tie dye bees"

2008-01-26T22:58:00.000-08:00

Mama must oblige! Notice the color on my wrist.... thats her room color. She requested to decorate her room in tie dyed bees and tie dye and bees! So this is my first painting. Got her room all painted (like almost the entire thing on my own with only help from Rob on the tall areas because he was busy disassembling the beds..etc). I have to say I am pretty happy with the results. Robs touching up the last bits of the painting. I am pretty tired now so I will get her room all set up in the am and post some more pics for everyone to see the finished product
night night

Paranoid much?

2008-01-23T17:50:00.000-08:00

I wonder what pants weigh the least? Don't forget to take that big necklace off. No water or food after 3pm... I don't want to weigh more than I have to.

Why didn't I use more disipline last weekend? Why didn't I track more often and more exact? Why do I always do this to myself?

It is so easy to lose focus. Why? You would think I would be losing 4 or 5 pounds a week right now. I have enough to lose that it wouldn't be unrealistic I don't think.

Yet here I am, a "lifetime" member who has lost and gained back over 50 pounds. Thinking to myself " I wonder if the wire in my bra weighs something?" Seriously? Come on. If I were doing this the right way I would be thrilled on Wednesday night

big girls

2008-01-18T17:59:00.000-08:00

I proped them like this they aren't actually pulling up like that yet. Ruby is also not way shorter but was falling over..lol. Look at them! I cannot believe how big they are. How did I get these 2 babies? I mean really, no fertility drugs, no twins in the family and the first month in 5 years I am off bc I get pregnant with twins. There must be some life lesson I am going to learn from twins.... or maybe I will go crazy... we'll wait and see. Between them being fussy and me getting no sleep and Stella being so totally grumpy and sick all week and trying to stay on program with WW... yes there are days I think my head is going to spin off... but tonight I am going to see ps i love you. So maybe when I get home I will be less, um (cant even think of a word) like I am right now. Is it bad to need to get away from the constant "mom, mommy, WAAAAAAAAAAA" sometimes? I feel like I am a bad mother sometimes for it

what...like 5 months?

2008-01-17T22:31:00.000-08:00

To plan the twins first birthday! It has got to be cool. I have decided on the theme but it needs fine tuning. I want to have a party in which everyone brings the beans a favorite story book. So some kind of story book party. I need brilliant ideas... and sleep in order to have them. So goodnight nobody ;-) give me ideas if you have em'

seriously?

2008-01-17T11:03:00.000-08:00

I thought I would share a little taste of what my days have been like lately..lol isn't it lovely?!? Stella is home for the 4th day in a row from school. She is better somewhat but has only been on the antibiotics for about 12 hours so they said one more day. She will go to school 1 day this week! Poor bee is missing her class. Now guess what? I am sick. I am so mad. I feel like yelling at someone not that anyone would hear me but I feel like yelling "COME ON, THROW ME A BONE ONCE IN AWHILE HERE!" I was puking my guts out last thursday/friday and the kids have all been sick for what, 2 weeks and now this. Geeez... give me a break. Or let me win the lottery or something (but I guess we would have to play to win and I don't so just send me cash) Just getting to sleep better would help so much. I think thats why I have been sick so much. That and I am trying so hard to eat well and that means less and when I am so busy it means not at all for hours and then feeling like I am passing out from hunger. Lame I know I need more hours in the day, or for someone to swoop my kids all away for the weekend and let me and Rob sleep for about 12 hours and then we could paint the girls rooms and get it all done. I am dreaming.

I want to hide

2008-01-16T15:41:00.000-08:00

It is horrible. I keep finding myself comming up with excuses for not going to weight watchers tonight. This is my second week and I keep thinking things like "well I havent slept more than 3 hours a night for about 4 nights I am too tired" or "Stella is really sick (she has a respitory infection) and I should stay home" I could go on with other lame excuses. See the thing is that last thursday I had the stomache flu. I lost 5lbs in two days! I was expecting some great strides with my weigh in tonight. I stepped on the scale this morning. yeah so many 1 pound! I wanted to cry and in fact I think I did tear up a little. I have been good. I don't get it. I havent gone over points or anything and I didnt eat for 2 days!
The only thing I can think of is that I have been eating too much salt, too much bread and not enough veggies or drinking enough water. Plus I have only journaled a couple of days. Stella is sick and the babies have been sick and then not sleeping. I have been going hours without eating and so many nights without sleep. I feel like a mess.
Cheryl just called me and I am going... she is picking me up so I have to go I have no choice.
I hate knowing it won't be the 6lbs I lost last week. That makes me so sad. I NEED to lose that much every week and then just be done.

I should start taking Alli... those commercials kinda make me want to. I need to exercise but how the hell am I suppose to exericse on no sleep. I need my energy to even walk

I AM A BABY!

here you go

2008-01-16T12:22:00.000-08:00

a few of my favorite things

looking up song lyrics on the interent. Gone are the days of leafing through the cd cover hoping they printed them and being disappointed by the numerous random photos and no lyrics.

Pumpkin cookies, Pumpkin candles, even pumpkin lotion *but not pumpkin pie

boys who can play the guitar, I will forever be a sucker for you

the sound of a can opening, hopefully its a diet rockstar for me

photos that need no editing

the smell of a newborn baby, it fades after a couple of weeks and I dont even know how to describe it

how it feels to slide into freshly washed sheets

watching my children laugh

the way burts bee's lip balm feels on my mouth

the way my grandma's handwriting and robs grandmas look the same

The letter "L" in cursive

looking through a new pottery barn catalog and dreaming

how exciting it is to look at the pictures as soon as they download

Sun shining down on my face

dry (but not dead) grass between my toes

Pearl necklaces, ok earrings and bracelets too!

new mascara, the hope of finding one that does all that they promise

full gas tanks

watching the number on the scale go down week by week

* babies who let me sit long enough to finish this post... oh well something to look foward to in the future right

Iris's new room

2008-01-13T20:28:00.000-08:00

The girls came home today to find Iris's room a lovely shade of "Orange Spice" being the Orange-a-holic she is, Iris was thrilled! We also picked up a new bookcase at Ikea and have it built but not attached to the wall so I will wait to fill the shelves. Tonight after reading Iris asks me to stay in her room, when Stella left she says "Mom do we really turn into other people when we die?" Seth said we do. I tried to explain to her than there are many different beliefs that people have and that you have to find the one you believe because really none of us know for sure. She decided she likes the idea of going to heaven with her great grandparents or if she comes back to life maybe she would have fun to be a horse or something..... yeah its times like these when I am both amused and startled by the conversations we have. I am afraid of screwing my kids up with religion but almost just as much without...... it would be a lot easier if I myself really had a strong belief one way or another. But I am glad my kids dont go to bed afraid that god will send them to hell or kill them in armagedeon...

The men in my life

2008-01-12T00:14:00.000-08:00

Here are my two guys (photo by Stella) today I was basically useless. Sick as a dog lying in bed. I feel better now, if better was being classified by not puking my guts out, but weak and sore now. My head is hurting really bad probably because I am dehydrated. Anyways I am getting better and hopefully tomorrow I will not feel like death.
Brett and Liz came over for a movie. "the heartbreak kid" it was stupid but funny. I also had a dream today that Liz's baby was named Lucas... that will always be his name to me now ;-)

41. things

2008-01-11T18:39:00.000-08:00

1. Do you like blue cheese? yeah lots... especially in dressing form

2. Have you ever smoked heroin? can't say that I have

3. Do you own a gun? Rob has one or two I think but not here

4. Your favorite song? I have a lot of them... here are a few, "Stay" -Lisa Loeb (yeah I know), "joker" Steve Miller band, "Dream a little dream" -mama's & the papa's, "32 flavors"-Ani difranco, "memories of us" Keith Urban, ok I could go on and on

5. Do you get nervous before doctor appointments? yes and for the most stupid of reasons... the scale!!!

6. What do you think of hot dogs? If I dont "THINK" of them they are great

7. Favorite Christmas song? baby its cold outside

8. What do you prefer to drink in the morning? Water and Rockstar

9. Can you do push ups? just the girly kind right now, I need to fix that though

10. What's your favorite piece of jewelry? my wedding ring

11. Favorite hobby? taking pictures of my girls

12. Do you have A.D.D.? I surely do not

13. What one trait do you hate about yourself? I take myself for granted

14. What is your middle name? Elaine, just like my Grandmothers, Aunts and my oldest daughters

15. Name 3 thoughts at this exact moment...

1. I really really really want to start scrapbooking again
2. My tummy is making some crazy noises
3. I have barely heald my beans in the last 24 hours (since I have been throwing up) and I miss them terribly

16. Name 3 things you bought yesterday?
1.gatoraide
2.soup
3.saltines

17. Current hate right now? the stabbing pain in my head

18. How did you bring in the New Year? With Cory, Greg, Lucy, Betsy, Mike and my love

19. Where would you like to go? I want to take the babies to disneyland, I want to go on a trip to Canada, I want to go somewhere warm and sunny and take pictures of the babies in bikinis...lol

20. Name three people who will complete this???

21. Do you own slippers? I actually don't really

22. What shirt are you wearing? my black hoodie, for the second day in a row, I am a sloth

23. Do you like sleeping on satin sheets? little slippery

24. Can you whistle? I sure can

25. Favorite color? Tourquoise blue, Plum, Orange, Reds, Browns, golds...

26. Would you be a pirate? only if I was kissing Orlando Bloom

27. What songs do you sing in the shower? I usually take very fast showers with no singing, but maybe I should start to

28. Favorite girl's name? I will say some other than the obvious ones I used
Grace *thats my #1 name I cannot believe I didnt use anywhere on any of my kids
Hope
Addison

29. Favorite boy's name?
Jack
Sawyer
Maddox
Ben
Owen

30. What's in your pocket right now?
no pockets on my sweats...lol

31. Last thing that made you laugh?
Larkin who was laughing at everything today

32. Best bed sheets as a child?
Strawberry shortcake

33. Worst injury you've ever had?
C-section count? Or gallbladder thats more of an injury

34. Do you love where you live?
I do love where I live and who I live with. I would like to have some more land one day and a craft room

35. How many TVs do you have in your house?
2 and a few in the garage we dont use

36. Who is your loudest friend?
Lindsey???

37. How many dogs do you have?
One

38. Does someone have a crush on you?
he better

39. Favorite book?
I am into Harry Potter

40. What is your favorite candy?
Those raspberries and blackberries that are kinda gummy or peppermint patties,... or anything chocolate and peanut butter, or any white chocolate

41. What song do you want played at your funeral? Brown eyed girl ;-)

42. What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up?

week 1

2008-01-09T22:04:00.000-08:00

I lost 6.2pounds. I am thrilled with that. I wish I could do that every week. Unfourtunately I know the harsh reality is that really for maybe another week or two I can have greater losses for the most part it will come off one week at a time. I am ok with that. As long as I see it going down and down I am ok no matter how small as long as its smaller.

Too many times in my life I have let other people come before me and what I want. I have let other people bring me down and I lose focus and motivation. I let myself feel as though taking care of my body is being selfish and vain.

fuck that. I am done making up excuses for things not being exactally how I want them in my life. I am done blaming myself for the things that I went though a few years ago and although I have said it before I feel it more and more lately.
I don't have anything to be ashamed of. I went through hell and came out of it with so much more... I win, there is no question about that!

the big bad

2008-01-09T08:42:00.001-08:00

It's wednesday. I am always afraid of weigh in's. Like I will hate myself all week if I am not down... I have been good I should be down. I wish I could lose like 10lbs a week. That would make it so fast. I have been reading a few other blogs (you know other than on myspace) and realize that there are way cooler things to blog about other than my weight issues. Still I blog about feeling fat and being afraid of the scale.

I do feel more in control now. Just not grabbing the nearest food source when I am stressed out and havent eaten for 12 hours is a step in the right direction. I see other people more focused on the exercise part of weight loss. I tend to focus on the food. Not that I dont think exercise is great. I think it just has to go hand and hand and I know right now I can get down 30lbs or so and feel like exercise will be much easier without these huge boobs. By exercise I mean hard core stuff. Right now I need to get going on some weights and walking or doing some workout dvds

ugh Larkin is crying now. Not sure why I thought it would be a good idea to blog right now. I am just nervous I guess

huh

2008-01-08T20:21:00.000-08:00

Getting a little tired of pictures of me...